Throughout my transformation, I would write poetry as a way of documenting everything I felt during this time period. This particular poem is one that I wrote the day after my initial workout with Chris Powell. This was is patented fight or flight workout. It is entitled “Pain” because that is what I felt the next day. My body was aching and I was sore in places I did not know I could be sore. It is also titled this because I could physically feel how far I was in the whole and how difficult the year would be. It was like taking three steps up a hill, looking up and realizing you still have a mountain to climb. Without further ado….Pain.
By Jarvez Hall
I woke up today in pain
It hurts so bad, I may make it my middle name.
I keep a smile on my face to keep everyone deceived.
Because if I told them how much pain I was in, I would not be believed.
Sometimes it feels like the more I work, the further I have to go.
It is a consistent reminder of how deep I was in the hole.
It is real easy not to know
How far you are down.
I did not realize the path I was on
Led six feet underground.
Though I have turned my life around
And I have chosen a new course.
I do regret some of my past actions
And I do have some remorse.
But yesterday is gone
And today is now here.
Tomorrow I will look different
When I look in the mirror.
This journey is not a journey
At least not one for vanity sake.
It is about making a better life with my wife,
And about changing my fate.
Yeah, tomorrow will be a good day,
But as for today, I am in a lot of pain